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[bigsisterterran]

[Hi! I was told to set this up so people could leave me messages! So I'm leaving a message for you to leave me a message! If you know where my family is or how to get home, please tell me. I would like to go home. Thanks. Oh, this is Twitch.]

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[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch listened, she wasn't sure how comforting the words actually was, but it was nice to hear somebody else say her feelings were valid. Somehow Rung was different then someone like Optimus, but she couldn't say why. Maybe it was Rung's detachment from the situation.

She didn't say anything for a bit but she let him tug away the blankets. She peeked up at him a little, her orange eyes glistening. There is a moment where she just stares but then a second later the blanket if flying off as she tackles Rung in a hug, clinging to him with a small distressed noise.

Up to this point, she had had her freak out when she first came through the bridge. She had had that heavy feeling that made her want to purge all her insides whenever she thought about the family and home she left behind, about being trapped her without them. But for the most part, she was being strong. Having Optimus here helped, and Hashtag. Especially Hashtag who seemed to be adapting much better then Twitch was. It was best to make the most of her time here. She was doing better. Sad, but better. The news Anemone was the closest she had come in the last few months to breaking down.

And now. Now she was really letting herself feel.]

I want to go home. My real home, with everyone. My whole family.

[forgottengod]

I know. I know Sweetspark. Its painful, it hurts. And its not fair, I wish I could send you home. You and your sister.

[ He tenses only a second and then he's gently cradled around her. Protective, nurturing. He wants to take all these things away but repression is not good. ]

You can cry all you want. I won't ever judge, I won't tell anyone. I'm here for you.

Twitch you've been so brave, and you shouldn't have to be. You're still so new and this ordeal is ... Primus, I promised I'll be there for you and I will.

[ The package crinkles between the two mechs and Rung's forgotten the gift of comfort he was going to give her. That can wait anyway. All that matters is Twitch. ]

[bigsisterterran]

[It's not quite crying but she lets out some rather distressed sounds and her grip does everything but loosen around Rung. She wasn't sure if this was helping, if she was actually feeling better, but she wasn't sure it was possible to feel any worse. She was just glad it was only Rung right now. She didn't exactly try to hide her emotions, but she didn't like worrying people either.]

Optimus... and Hashtag... are so much braver. Why can't I just be okay?

[forgottengod]

Optimus is old and has the experience to back up coping skills... and it only seems that Hashtag is handling things surface wise... in the end we're all scared.

You don't have to be okay, you are doing everything in over drive right now... and sometimes you need to not be okay to be alittle more okay later.

[ He cups under the back of her head. Its a powerful hold. ]

We don't have all the answers. I don't have a perfect answer... but you were brave. Doesn't matter if you think its matching your Sister or Optimus.

I'm scared... I'm so scared as well... The unknown is frightening and all we can do is continue forward.

but right now. Right now neither of us need to be brave. We can be scared, we can cry. I'll cry with you.

[bigsisterterran]

[She doesn't know what to say at this point, she isn't really holding back, but all the same she is struggling to let go. She just has homesickness and loneliness and despair and defeat on repeat. She thought it would be better by now but somehow it just hurts worse. She knows what Run said, that her sister and Optimus aren't something she has to match, that they're dealing with it in her own way. But she's the big sister! She's supposed to be the leader!

She pulls in a shaking sound that sends a quiver down her whole body and then finally, finally she lets it out and begins to cry. Quiet at first but then finally loud and shaking and without restraint.]

[forgottengod]

[ He clings to her, and his optics static out. He cries with her, because it is so much. He knows what its like, to shoulder everything. To keep the brave face, to be strong emotionally. Mentally.

But... she's a child....

The crinkling of the bag brings hi mind back to a for front. Letting them both cry a little longer... She won't be alone with tears.

Waiting for the worst of it to be over as he leans back...

He doesn't say much of anything but simply holds the now tear stained package up to her. ]

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch goes on like this for a while and doesn't pull away until Rung does. She sniffs a bit, looking a bit run down and dim but her eyes fall on the package as Rung holds it out to her.]

What is it?

[Even ask she asks, she takes the gift and slowly opens it.]

Oh...

[She sounds like she's going to cry again.]

[forgottengod]

I remembered you were speaking of the farm, and the cows. So I did some digging and found a little novelty shop of Earth animals. I thought it would... help. She's not Fluffy Ears, but I hope she reminds you that there are people here to help you.

You don't have to burdon yourself alone.

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch sniffles, her hands trembling as she grips onto the cow like she was afraid to drop it but also afraid to crush it.]

I... I love it. Thank you...

[Her voice is meek. She doesn't know what to do with the cow, what to do with herself, she feels rung out and drained dry. She sniffs again.]

Do... do you have any more of those candies?

[forgottengod]

[ Rung pops open one of his many pockets and hands her an entire box. ]

Slowly, but you may have this many. I think you deserve something extra to keep your mind off the rough things for a minute...

[bigsisterterran]

[She looks a little surprised, but takes the box. He did say for her to take it slowly but all the same she took three and put the ends all in her mouth at once. These candies had become such a comfort and somehow they tasted so much better after a good cry.]

Thank you... [She said this after another bite of all three sticks and around a mouthful of candy, with a small sniffle for a nice accent.]

[forgottengod]

Would you like me to stay with you a while longer. I have nothing to do today so unless I get an emergency, I am free...

[ is he becoming too involved.... again... like then.. before. Why did he survive that...

But this is not about him. This is about Twitch and her family. and the loneliness bore down. ]

[bigsisterterran]

[She nods.]

I don't want to leave yet...

[She says this quietly, she felt too... off now, to strange to be too alone with her thoughts now. Rung's presence was comforting, even when they weren't talking. She looked down at the cow in her lap.]

Thank you. You're a really good friend.

[forgottengod]

[ He wants to cry. But he won't, not over his own silly irrationality. Simply places a hand on her head, touseling gently.]

I'm very happy to be your friend, Twitch.