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[bigsisterterran]

[Hi! I was told to set this up so people could leave me messages! So I'm leaving a message for you to leave me a message! If you know where my family is or how to get home, please tell me. I would like to go home. Thanks. Oh, this is Twitch.]

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[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch only clings a little tighter, making a stressed sound.]

You were GONE!

[It's nearly a wail, how can Hashtag be acting like nothing happened at all? Twitch was so scared and she knows it wasn't just a bad dream!]

[hashtaggayrobots]

[She's trying so hard to be big about this, to not so get emotional, but she also just wants to hold Twitch forever and maybe her body shakes just a little bit when she hears her talk about her being gone.]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, I never would have done that if I had a choice. I didn't.

I don't want to leave you ever again.

[bigsisterterran]

[There was a sound that was something like dismay, quiet and from deep in her core.]

You can't ever do that again!

[She said this like Hashtag had any control, even if she was a big sister, she was still a kid at her very heart.]

I was alone and you were gone and I didn't know where you went and I was scared! I was so SO Scared! You can't do that!

[Sure she had Optimus and Megatron, but it wasn't the same. She pulled back with her hands still on Hashtag's shoulders, and looked at her with a complicated expression, pained, angry, but most of all scared, so very scared.]

You can't leave me...

[hashtaggayrobots]

[If she could be crying like humans do, Hashtag might have started right then.]

I--I didn't mean to. I'm so sorry, Twitch. Everyone was worried and it's all my fault. I'm so sorry!

[She would never want to leave Twitch. Never want to be without her family--who she misses even more now, because she feels lost without them.]

It was scary because I woke up and everything felt so real, but it was a bad nightmare, and Rung said all the horror movies I watched probably caused it because they all piled into the worst thing ever and everything that could go wrong did and we lost everyone! I don't want that! I didn't mean to disappear! I don't want any of us to disappear! I didn't mean to upset anyone. I just--I just--I want Mom and Dad.

[bigsisterterran]

[Any anger Twitch had been feeling, well most of it at least, because she had been feeling a lot, ebbed away at Hashtag's words. Twitch brought her back in, gentler this time. This was her little sister, and none of this was her fault. Twitch might have been a little harsh and she might feel bad about it later, but for now, she felt relief as painful as it was soothing.]

I'm here. You're here now. We're together.

[She tried to be soothing, but there was a tremble in her voice that gave away just how close she was to her own breaking point, just how much she was forcing to keep it together for her sister.

The last words hit here like a train and she made a broken sound, pushing her face into Hashtag's shoulder. Her thoughts had been much the same ever since she arrived. Mom and Dad and Robby and Mo and all the rest. But to hear someone else say it...]

I want them too, but we have to be brave, just for now. We're stronger together. Maltos forever.

[hashtaggayrobots]

[Clinging to Twitch doesn't make it all better, but it helps. Because as much as she misses their parents and the rest of their family, she has Twitch. It matters so much that she's not alone.]

I miss them all so much. I keep thinking if I do more and stay busy I won't think about it as much but I think about them every day. I don't want to be brave anymore. Why does it always have to be us? Why can't we just be happy with the people we love?

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch doesn't really have the answers, as much as she's the big sister, and the leader more or less, she's still a kid. It was still times like this she would look to Optimus or their parents or even Robby and Mo, who seemed to understand these sorts of situation much better then she did. But she knows she has to say something. She knows that Hashtag is looking to her to be big and brave and all those other things Big Sisters were supposed to be and do. While still having to deal with her own confusing and conflicting emotions.

Why was everything so hard.]

I don't know.

[When Twitch finally says this, it's defeated. It's hard, to admit you don't have all the answers, but if anywhere is safe, it's with her sister, her family.]

Being here is hard. Ever since I arrived all I've wanted to do was go back. And I thought... I thought you were doing better then me. You seemed like you were having fun and everything and I was just sad all the time. And there are fun times, but then I just think about how much better it would be if our family was here too and I get sad again.

[There's a funny sound, a small, quiet whine as she rests her self against Hashtag's chest as she spoke, more rambling now.]

I want to go home, I don't want to be sad all the time. I miss our home and our family and the trees and the buildings and the cows and the long roads. And then you were gone and I thought I was alone and I didn't know where you went and what if it was a bad place and I went there too...

[Well, maybe that was a bit too much to be pouring on her poor sister, it was better if there were some things she didn't worry about.]

I'm just glad you're back. I'm glad you're safe. If we both made it here, maybe the others can too someday. Or they'll fix the space bridge and we'll get to go home. But I'm not going without you.

[As much as she wanted to go home, she wouldn't leave her sister here alone.]

[hashtaggayrobots]

I--I was having fun, but it's not the same without them. And everyone said we could go back home eventually and I'd have so many videos to share and things to tell them about so it would be like they were here, too! But the longer we stayed the more I just wanted all of them. To see Mom and Dad and Mo and Robby and Thrash and JB and then Nightshade was gone and I thought "I have to make videos for them, too, then, so we know how much we missed them!"

[Hashtag doesn't even think about it as she moves through the room with Twitch pulled so close. She finds her way to her bed and falls onto it. She rolls onto her side, never letting go of Twitch.]

But I don't...I don't want to go anywhere without you again. I don't want anymore bad dreams or space bridges that won't take us home. I don't want to learn about all the things wrong anywhere else anymore. I just want to stay with you.

[She doesn't mean to say it like that but that's what tumbles out of her mouth. She tucks her head down, so she can close her optics and only focus on the tiny frame in her arms that she clings to like if she doesn't hold tight it might disappear forever.]

We're together. I won't leave you alone again ever. I don't care what happens, I'll come back to you.

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch squirmed a little as they moved but didn't try to pull away, if anything, she wormed her way closer. She felt like she was going to break down all over again. There was so much inside of her and she wasn't sure how to get rid of it. Or if she even should. Did Robby or Mo or Mom or Dad or even their other Terran siblings feel so many things like this? What about Bee or Optimus or Megatron or the other Cybertronians? Did they mishmash inside them until none of it made sense?

Why did she still feel so angry?]

We stick together forever. Always. I love you Hashtag.

[What else was there to be said, they had both emptied their sparks and Twitch thinks it should have been something they did a long time ago, for each other.]

We'll still have all your movies to take back. I want to see them soon. Maybe I can help you with the next one.

[hashtaggayrobots]

[Why are feelings so hard and confusing? Why can they be So Much and so hard to understand? This isn't like a movie at all. The emotions don't fade when the screen goes black. They sit and grow and heat in her chest like an engine running too long.]

I love you, too, Twitch. [She would be giving her the tiniest of smiles if she wasn't hiding her face in the sharp ball she's trying to make out of herself.]

...Would you really help me? I've been practicing on shorter ones so I can learn for my big one. I...I could use some really cool aerial shots that aren't from the security feeds.

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch felt raw, full and empty at the same time, but she still managed to perk up a little.]

Of course! I can get some really cool shots and it'll be the best part of the movie!

[hashtaggayrobots]

It will be! And I can introduce you to Airazor, if you haven't met her yet. She's so cool and she is giant hawk-bot! With feathers and everything. You guys could get the best shots up in the sky...

[She trails off just a bit because it sounds so nice, but she's also very, very wrung out. They may not sleep much normally, but Hashtag is exhausted. She wants to cuddle with Twitch and not have to think about anything else.

Maybe if she slept she would have better dreams this time.]

[bigsisterterran]

Oh! Like Nightshade! Though I guess they're more owl then hawk...

[She hasn't really seen many bots that turn into animals so it's kind of cool that there are more of them. She wonders if Nightshade would be happy to know they're not alone in this endeavor or if they would be a little sad to not be unique. Sometimes it seems like it could go either way with them. They're special regardless, and she hopes they know that.

There is a bit of silence before Twitch asks a question, speaking quietly.]

Hey, Hashtag. Do you have any videos of home?

[hashtaggayrobots]

Videos? Sure. I have a lot.

[Her own voice gets softer, but she's trying to be upbeat.]

A bunch of videos of all of us training together and then there's the video of you and Robby from Philly... Do you want to see them? We could do a home movies night.

[bigsisterterran]

[Twitch wearily slots herself up against her sister in a very 'I'm going to be here a while and the end of the universe itself won't make me move' sort of way.]

Let's watch them now.

[She doesn't really care how. She's sure Hashtag can figure it out.]